I finally know..Originally I am very easily a person who cries, not enough strong person

i am easily a person who cries...!!me not enough strong person...i am easily sad...!!i am easily unhappy.....!!!and me feeling me and my lover... is cannot FOREVER i am got some hurt....and at home cry...!!Then I start discovering I at my lover heart in is in fact of no account....And she is together...I really have no sense of security...Seem afraid that her one day there will will leave me...My beginning frightened...I still think that someone can understand me..In fact have no..My mother connects clothes 1 have never bought to me...!!I....Very lonesome...i am ALONE